"Behind every door there is trouble"
     This was said in church today and its kind of like the popular song "I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes"  I'm not the only one that has troubles ! I know it seems like everyone else around has it easy when your trials make you feel like the world is caving in on you. But the fact is everyone on this earth has trials.

The late President Kimball who was the President of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints while I was growing up said: "Being human, we would expel from our lives physical pain and mental anguish and assure ourselves of continual ease and comfort, but if we were to close the doors upon sorrow and distress, we might be excluding our greatest friends and benefactors. Suffering can make saints of people as they learn patience, long-suffering, and self - mastery."
   
     "No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. It ministers to our education, to the development of such qualities as patience, faith, fortitude and humility.  all that we suffer and all that we endure, especially when we endure it patiently, builds up our characters, purifies our hearts, expands our souls, and makes us more tender and charitable, more worthy to be called the children of God ... and it is through sorrow and suffering, toil and tribulation, that we gain the education that we come here to acquire and which will make us more like our Father and Mother in heaven."
                                                                                                                                ~Orson F. Whitney

Nothing teaches selflessness and patience better than motherhood; When I was young I loved to dance, but didn't plan on taking up dance as I was short and plump. However, I ended up taking dance in high school because it was the only P E class I could take as my asthma would not let me take normal P E. Taking dance taught me to endure pain, breath, and gave me strength to handle what was to come in my future. (Things happen for a reason) At age 16 I fell 15ft onto a hard floor on my tail bone while jumping on a trampoline without a spotter, something I had been warned not to do. It hurt like crazy but I told no one for fear of getting in trouble. Later my back went into terrible spasms, I was rushed to the hospital but was sent home later with instructions to rest, no ex-rays were taken.  Many years later after going through 6 pregnancies and much crippling pain  and eventually becoming crippled, I learned that I had broken a wing on my spine and it healed wrong. The pressure of weight gain and carrying babies had deformed my spine to the point of almost severing my spinal cord.
An eight hour surgery was proposed asap with a 50% chance of paralyzing me. Yes I was scared, but I knew that the Lord did not bless me with the joy and wonderment of those 6 beautiful children just for them to loose their Mother when they needed her most. I received a blessing from some Elders there in Billings Mt and I went to sleep with my Husband holding my hand. I woke up 10 hours later and spent the next 30 days completely helpless, unable to move on my own. When the nurses moved me I cannot even describe the horrendous pain that followed. But the Lord was blessing me all the way through. He sent me a wonderful angels in the form of family a friend and neighbor to care for my children and myself through the whole ordeal.  Our family was in a small development in North East Montana where the developer had stopped paying the workers. This left several families including ours stuck through the winter with no income. But somehow, we were blessed with a roof over our heads, warmth in terrible winter temps of -40 wind chill. We even had food provided by the near by town. It took me almost a year to learn to walk again. But I was blessed with the miracle of being able to walk again! The Lord provided the way as I endured through this hard and painful trial.

Was it painful and very hard at times? yes, would I do it all over again? Yes! Because I endured,and because I held on, I have 6 amazing and talented children who I love with all of my heart.  I even have two grand children!

The Lord tells us in Deuteronomy 31:6,8
"Be strong and of good courage, fear not,nor be afraid of them: for the Lord they God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. and the Lord, he it is that doth go before thee; he will be with thee, he will not fail thee, neither forsake thee: fear not, neither be dismayed."


Also in 1 Corinthians 10:13:
"There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that you are able: but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it."

So please, rejoice in your trials for the blessings they bring! have faith! hang in there! And above all forgive, and don't let it make you bitter, let God make you better!